trust issues

trusting people nowadays can be fatal, i should know...

we just found out that my little brother's mobile phone was missing. we've also found out that one of my mom's visitors took it. --> score one for her anito! he got that one right. seems that the bitch was short on cash and had no other choice than take the phone when she had the chance.

how did we know, you ask? aside from that premonition from my mom's anito, she sent a text message to the alleged robber. the bitch, still having her conscience intact, admitted the allegations against her. apparently, she took the phone when my mom invited her over our place to discuss business matters. being the carefree, lazy, and untidy people that we are, we just let things lay around the house --> i.e. cellphones, wallets, even cash. you probably know the rest of the story.

the bitch took the phone to a pawnshop. she promised to bring back the phone as soon as she gets it back from the pawnshop. good for her, otherwise she would end up in jail.

moral of the story: don't let things lay around your house. --> wait, is this really the point? shouldn't you feel secure in your home? *skeptic*

moral of the story: don't buy expensive cellphones, or any other expensive thing so you won't feel bad when it gets stolen. --> good point, but wait. that's not it either!!

moral of the story: choose the people you trust. ---> i think this would be it.

the issue: TRUST

it's just sad when you try to help someone out and get betrayed in return. makes me want to put all people like that in a container and cut some of their body parts into fine pieces then feed them to the rats. i've came to realize that there are things more painful than death. people like that bitch don't deserve the easy way out.

reminds me of my own situation. that bastard hasn't shown up in 3 weeks now. he might still be in jail, or he might be back in nueva viscaya, or he might be somewhere else - thinking he's now wanted for estafa --> just to refresh your memory and make your blood boil, he owes you 11k of your hard-earned money. God knows what he's up to. for all i know he may have already forged my signature and ran away with my money. if that would be the case, i'd have his hands and tongue removed, so he won't be able to decieve anyone else nor hold a dagger or a gun or anything else. losing his hands and tongue would be more painful than dying, in my POV at least.

oh yeah, i just remembered. my boss tells me to do something about my trust issues, otherwise i'm going to have a hard time with relationships and marriage. --> it's not like i'm not having a hard time NOW. fine. point taken. let me just find a way to become attached with my emotions again. in my defense, i don't want to feel vulnerable again. i barely held up the last time i trusted someone and it didn't turn out right. i know, i know it's in the past. i have to forget it. give me some more time. maybe another 4 years. *smirk*

that's enough bad thought for the day. --> man, this isn't helping me become a peaceful creature at all.
i need a happy thought. i need a happy thought.. i need a happy thought... i need a happy thought........