the first month

i dunno how to react to this - put two difficult people in a relatonship, along with personality issues and various constraints from circumstances beyond our control. would you be sad to realize that a month felt like a year, or would you just be happy that a situation so difficult have atleast lasted a month?

met up with sarah at mr. donut around 9:30am. rain suddenly poured when i got her message:

kung may payong ka, punta ka na lang sa jollibee. nandun ako eh, pero kung wala ako na lang pupunta dyan...

went to fetch her. it seemed that her tricycle driver was her neighbhor/spy to her dad. she had to do something. i dunno if should be happy or sad that she's finding ways to hide our relationship from her dad. she showed me her diary and pointed out the instances that she saw me (or any entry that had my name on it. looks like she was my no.1 fan). i was laughing at her entries, i never thought i had that much impact on her. i really don't.

we went to gateway. she hasn't gone there ever. figured giving her a tour would be fun. had lunch at tang city, while exchanging stories of just about anything. its refreshing that she didn't ask too many questions. either that or i've somehow grown used to it that i couldn't feel like she was asking me anything anymore. we went to megamall after lunch - to watch a movie. why go there when you have movie houses at gateway? - megamall was cheaper. end of story. it wasn't my decision, by the way.

watched "the legend of zorro". we had a few good laughs, especially with the horse (na daig pa ang mga tambay sa kanto sa mga bisyo). it was nice that i could watch a good movie while having someone special in my arms. warm hugs can be so addicting. hehe.

told her that i wanted to atend mass, and that the church at UP had a 6pm mass. we decided to go. i guess lasting for a month despite the situation (or anything really), is worth praying for. i just wanted to say thanks to Him, even if i already wishpered my prayers the day before over at edsa shrine. it was her first time to enter UP's catholic church (man, how many "first time"s have i given her? [no pun intended ;p]). went to sm north for dinner. went about that same anything-goes-anything-under-the-sun conversation. took a van to malolos, and brought her to her place.

she gave me a gift. it was funny 'coz she was telling me that she didn't know what to give me. it was the first time that she had a hard time thinking about gifts to give to someone. i simply hid my letter along with a laminated picture of sakura (her fave anime character), in the back of her diary while she wasn't looking. on my way home, i told her to clean up her bag, since it was messy (it really was. its as messy as my bag. hehe). she eventually found the letter. my only regret was i didn't get to see her reaction after she read it, but i think i pulled a rather decently nice surprise.

and here i am, nostalgic about the day's events, even if its a plain and simple date. i pray that we could make this relationship work despite the odds where about to face in coming months...

happy, you ask? definitely...