family stuff

it is true that some good things don't last...
that nostalgia i had for 2 days is now gone...
now i'm trying to be as positive i can, just so this day wouldn't turn out like crap...

last night my dad found out my mom's been lying to him regarding money matters. dad kept talking to me, saying he's disappointed at the fact that he's been working his ass off for more than 20 years and still we don't have savings and the home hasn't improved one bit...

mom's been keeping the family's bank book... and secretly withdraws cash for things we don't know. dad found the bank book last night and questioned mom about it. mom didn't give a sane answer.. i don't know if she even gave an answer...

on saving
my siblings know the value of money... so we save our allowance/salaries to the best we can, so we wouldn't have to depend too much on dad's cash. personally, i don't want to be added to the household expense... dad wants all of us to have savings, that's why he doesn't require me and my sister to pitch in with the household expenses... i'm really sad to see dad so down and disappointed that all his years of work and sacrifice isn't paying off...

mom's sickness
i think no matter how hard she tries, money just slips out of her hands like oil-covered fish. i can't blame her. perhaps that's how she is... but i can't see an ounce of effort to change that. she always told us to save, but she doesn't.

though i'm against this sodeline work of hers, i let it slip 'coz she's happy with what she's doing. but dad told me that this "work" of hers doesn't really pay. there's little to no income at all. i agree that she should stop, but who am i to stop her? she never listens to any of us...

pressure sets in
though dad did tell me that my sister and i are not obliged to help, i still feel i have to do something to fix all this. i don't know, that's how i've been all these years, but i refused to see the problem inside the house. someone else can fix it, so why should i bother? maybe i'm just blowing this out of proportion, but i don't like the scenario that my parents would get into a big fight JUST BECAUSE of money...

i think my responsibilities in the household are going to take a serious turn...