its one of those days

Warning: this is not the usual happy thought you’ve been reading for quite sometime now.

I was at a meeting this afternoon with the head of my client's marketing and product development department. We were discussing details of the design for the project. I swear I could understand most of what was being discussed. I could even come up with sensible questions (the ones nikki wants us to formulate before actually going to a meeting).

Then it hit me.

Is this really what I want?

yeah, weird. I know.

Maybe this is just another “quarter-life crisis” attack of some sort. But I couldn’t see myself staying in a work such as this. Yes, it entails a lot of analysis, a little programming, and a lot of discussions with clients who, at one point or another, will become unreasonably annoying due to outrageous remarks and seemingly nerve-racking requests.

Maybe I’m not cut out for high-stress work.

Maybe I’m better off being my own boss.

Maybe I’m a lot happier doing the things I really want.

But that’s just it.

Sometimes I wish I was rich enough to be able to do the things that I really like – concentrate on the arts and develop whatever talent I have at drawing and digital painting. Learn how to do animations and possibly learn a little programming for gaming designs. I may not make much money out of it, but at least I have the rest of my life to try and perfect it and, one day, be recognized even by a small group of people – that the full-length animation I’ve been dreaming of doing would be shown at a local TV station once every week – that I get to finish one whole comic book series that would reflect present events and provide morals for everyone reading it…

Maybe I need to silence that kid in me for a while, or at least lecture him that there are things that we want to do, and there are things we have to do – for whatever reason…

another personal treat

haven't had beer for quite sometime...

haven't gone bowling since i made my career high, too...

yesterday i got to do both... and more.

a japanese (was it japanese? sorry, its not short-term memory loss. i just dunno if it really was japanese) meal for lunch with close friends while discussing details for summer outing was probably one of the best lunch dates i've had in a while.

went to bagaverde with cham, hazel, and vinz. last time i was in a bar was at capones (i think)... the bands (flipside and side a), were great, plus we had the chance to catch up on each other's stories - over beer ofcourse (nothing like alcohol to bond friends closer together). left the bar at 2am... smiling. tired, but smiling... =)

note: sorry for mentioning side A like an amateur band. you all know side A, yes? i'm not so much of a fan, but last night i got to appreciate their songs. =)

here's one fo them.

Set You Free
Side A

We often fool ourselves
And say that it's love
Only cause when it's gone
We end up being lonely
So how are we to know That it just isn't so
That we just have to let each other go

There were many times
When we shared precious moments
But later realized they were only stolen moments
So how are we to know
That it just wasn't so
That we just had to let each other go

(chorus)
If loving you is all that means to me
When being happy is all I hope you'd be
Then loving you must mean
I really have to set you free

Each day we meet my love for you
Keeps growing stronger
But everytime we meet
Makes meeting you so much harder
So how are we to know
That this just wasn't so
That we just have to let each other go

(chorus)

Letting go is not an easy task
When smiling feels like
I must wear this lonely mask
It hurts deep inside
And I just cannot hide
That there's anguish at the thought
That we should have to part

(chorus 2x)

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was blog surfing and i found a site that makes word clouds such as this. kinda cool, actually.

got this from snapshirt.com. try it, its kinda fun. =)

and don't ask what i'm doing up at 7 in the morning on a saturday, i don't know either...